Everytime something goes wrong

Everytime something goes wrong i always go back to be that kid. So angry, and just want to push people away. Stupid little shits frustrates me, and i dont think its healthy. I want to blame that kid for the post trauma and everything.. its not okay

Guess who gives up ? Not me

Today i woke up with a great feeling about my skin, my mental health, my confidence and everything.. i took a shower, looked at myself in the mirror and i said “hey its gonna be a good day! Youre gonna be in a good mood! Youre beautiful, youre awesome, youre not gonna be late to work..” and all that..

Turns out

Its not a good day so far, i got to such an awfull traffic. It was so awfull that i had to turn and wasted way too many times, and so i was late to work. The moment i got to my desk my computer was broken 🙂 so i had to go to the nearest branch to do some tasks. After that i got back to my office, and my computer was fixed, did my job and went out to have lunch with my co worker. We decided to buy some snacks and i had to take cash from the atm and i accidentally left my card in the machine. So i had to call the customer service and asked them to block my card.

What a day huh ?

I dont feel pissed or anything, maybe because i started the day convincing myself that im gonna be okay. I guess talking to yourself works out perfectly..

If theres anything i can learn about today is the fact that we talk to ourselves the most, so we gotta be carefull of what we say to ourselves, and what we think.. and no matter what happens, you just have to do the next right thing

Okay ?

Untill we meet again! 🤙

-M

Just when i thought i got the hang of the job, i realize i fucked up again

Life Update

How many years has it been ? Haha.. HI! Okay first of all, im 22 now 😋 and i have a job. Just got in, for about a month and im kinda loving kinda enjoying it. 2019 was a crazy year, between may till september i was not okay at all. I was mentally not okay and Alhamdulillah it gets a lot better. Im physically and mentally healthy and happy now. Hopefully financially happy and healthy too lol wtf. My loved ones are all great, my parents, sisters, putri, fitri, ica.. theyre all amazing. Im in a serious relationship with my man.. my highschool boyfriend, love him the most. Ahhh life gets better and its great and i love him. I know i said this a lot in my last posts but i promise i’ll write a lot here 🤭✌️

Untill we meet again! 🤙

-M

Ps : heres a pict of my cat Illyo shes so cute how can i be mad